Before working with Heliena, I didn't realise how much I had been living in survival mode. I used my husband as a shield and a buffer when I felt overwhelmed around other people. I've always found it hard to make friends because I've never felt good enough. I've never truly felt loved or felt real joy or connection with others, except for my kids. I had spent most of my life with a hard persona up. Sstuck in fight and flight. I had been carrying so much for so long and I was chronically exhausted. When I first met Heliena, I felt something I had never felt before. She got me. She understood me. I had never felt that before. She made me feel safe. To be honest, I didn't really understand what it would involve until I experienced it for myself. She told me the basics of it, but I truly didn't understand until I went through it. As soon as I walked into the room, it felt calm and safe. The air around me, the smells, the sounds — everything felt right. Normally, I have a lot of aversion to smells and can find them quite overwhelming, but this felt different. Everything just felt exactly as it needed to be, and I immediately felt safe and at ease. During the session, Heliena knew exactly where to focus at the right time. There were moments where I felt like I needed my hand held, and she did, or support around my neck, and that happened too - all without me saying a word. I felt something heavy leaving my body through my arms and my tummy. At one point my tummy started hurting, she began working on this area and then the pain went away. Throughout the entire session I felt so safe and cared for. Afterwards, I couldn't believe the time. It felt like twenty minutes, but in reality it was over two hours. What I can say is that the heavy weight I had been carrying for so long truly lifted. After my session, I stopped taking my antidepressants, which I had been taking for years and personally never thought I would be off. For some reason that I can't explain, I just don't seem to need them anymore. I laughed for the first time. I know that sounds weird, but I had never truly laughed before. I didn't even know I could belly laugh and snort laugh, but I did, and it felt amazing. I walked away feeling lighter and I have so much more energy, and capacity for genuine connection now. What she has is a true gift. Thank you, Heliena.
- Donna